ok so last week was... interesting
i got my Extended Project handed in last week (was it really only last week? wow!)
and yeah... last just be hush about the pe coursework
The big thing of the week? Has to be the Cambridge Town Bumps of course!!!
i've been coxing for about 4 months now and not very long ago we had my first race (the getting on race for the bumps) where the crew got a faster time by 29seconds than last year (thats a huge improvement considering there are at least 4 new members of the team!)
so then my second race was on tuesday, where we rowed as the second boat in Div4, where we made a bump
http://www.jetphotographic.com/showphoto.php?id=204734
http://www.jetphotographic.com/showphoto.php?id=204735
http://www.jetphotographic.com/showphoto.php?id=204736
(this is us making the bump)
it took 308 meters! :)
then because we became top of the division we had to row again that night, only as the last boat in Div3, where we bumped again! (sadly no pictures this time, we didnt time it so that we were in front of the photographer)
so 2 bumps on the first night, this was double what they get in the bumps last year! so we headed to the beer tree, and smiles all round!!
the wednesday night we started off 2nd boat in Div3, we werent too worried about the competition behind us as they were the boat that we had bumped the night before, we were now focusing on getting the boat in front of us, before they caught the boat in front of them.
we managed it, of course! again not in a very long amount of time :)
However the true test was tonight, we knew that the boat in front had it in them to bump the people ahead, it was just a matter of can we get their first?
depressingly they got there first, so we were looking at an over bump which would have been possible, if our next target hadnt also bumped, and the next 2 crews bump as well!! we were rowing up, race pace, and just saw all of the boats move out of the way as they all bumped, we knew then that it would be a row over so we focused on getting a nice technique!
By the time we got outside the plough pub i could see number 41, who had started 7 places ahead of us, we had gained A LOT on them! however they knew they were on for a row over and so didnt try as hard, we were followed all the way by the people we had bumped on the first night, however they were nowhere near us to be a threat.
Our hopes of getting blades with a brand new, novice crew were gone - months of practice gone in less than a minute
However,
chins up
tomorrow is another day
and it would be fantastic to get 4 bumps, even if they aren't on each day so don't count for blades!
Also, tomorrow i am going to try to surprise the crew with some music on the row back after the race, we have been talking about it for a while - getting something with the right beat to keep them in time... so i am think bon jovi - living on a prayer, its good and not too much of a cliché, and we are the champions - it has to be done!! and then our bow man has suggest we will rock you on the way up possibly!! :)
so will be fun tomorrow and relaxing!!
Wish me luck!
Thursday, 22 July 2010
Thursday, 15 July 2010
Workworkwork!!
Ok the teachers told us that this term would be nice and relaxed...
Urm, when were they planning for that to happen??
I had to hand in my Extended Project folder on monday, and in theory my pe coursework first draft as well, however i asked for an extension for the pe to tomorrow which would have been fine. Until i handed in my EP and was told that i had done my PPR wrong and to hand it in on wednesday - which happens to be my day when i have lots of time to spare, and was planning on doing my PE coursework then. So i ended up spending my wednesday redoing my PPR and then i had to get the early bus home (which took off an hour of my day!) to get to the doctors to have my Hep A booster. Suffice to say i managed to finish my EP, at the expense of my PE :/
and now i've got literally none of my PE coursework done and it has to be in tomorrow! and at somepoint i have to create the presentation for my EP otherwise i drop a load of marks, and u can guarantee that the other person who has been in my group won't do anything towards it :/
Why do we have to do group work?
*insert massive rant about the group work we are doing in PE at the moment - lets just say im the only one willing to do anything!*
The worst part of it all...
all the rubbish feelings i end up getting always get taken out in the form of trich
:(
anyway its not ridiculously late
and i still havent done my work :/
grrr
Urm, when were they planning for that to happen??
I had to hand in my Extended Project folder on monday, and in theory my pe coursework first draft as well, however i asked for an extension for the pe to tomorrow which would have been fine. Until i handed in my EP and was told that i had done my PPR wrong and to hand it in on wednesday - which happens to be my day when i have lots of time to spare, and was planning on doing my PE coursework then. So i ended up spending my wednesday redoing my PPR and then i had to get the early bus home (which took off an hour of my day!) to get to the doctors to have my Hep A booster. Suffice to say i managed to finish my EP, at the expense of my PE :/
and now i've got literally none of my PE coursework done and it has to be in tomorrow! and at somepoint i have to create the presentation for my EP otherwise i drop a load of marks, and u can guarantee that the other person who has been in my group won't do anything towards it :/
Why do we have to do group work?
*insert massive rant about the group work we are doing in PE at the moment - lets just say im the only one willing to do anything!*
The worst part of it all...
all the rubbish feelings i end up getting always get taken out in the form of trich
:(
anyway its not ridiculously late
and i still havent done my work :/
grrr
Tuesday, 29 June 2010
Everything you could want to know about trich in one go...
Well, i promised you a blog, today about trich so here it is...
What would you like to know about it?
It's an All consuming monster
there's not really much more to it...
well, i guess there are the facts...
the literal translation from Greek is 'hair pulling madness'
It is an illness not a disease (am just gonna put in here that these are my thoughts - not necessarily medical facts), and the reason i am making a difference is because i personally think of a disease as something more terminal, where-as an illness is something everyone gets, and recover from...
having done some searching, i have just found this amazing poem which helps to show the feelings:
To wake every morning
Guilt ridden from head to toe
You head to the mirror, not entirely sure of what will show.
Head already spinning of how to cover up
What can be the reason when people ask ‘whats up?’
A dare seems the most likely
Followed by drunken prankOr be gutsy and be truthful
About all the hairs you yank?
It’s just not good to look at,
When all the face is bare,
Although not as bad as many,
the pulling is still there
You see a dark root coming,
and you want that bastard hair.
The urge, stronger, stronger, stronger until finally defeat’s conceded.
That urge you tried to ignore but eventually you ceded.
Relief is there straight after
Though only fleeting by.
Then it really hits you,The agonising aftermath;
Not just redness above the eyes
But the mental state your left in
The question of just why?
Where has it gone
That confidence I lack?
All I want is to have it back
Well this is my life, so Welcome.
Welcome to my life
As a trichotillomaniac
I wake every morning
Guilt ridden from head to toe
I head to my mirror, not entirely sure of what will show……
the thing is it's just so true to life! i am not taking the credit for it, it is on the UK Trichotillomania Support forum/website thingy...
Anyway, back to earlier comment - the whole all consuming monster...
It is, it affects me everywhere i go, bearing in mind i am a student atm, so always out, getting to/from college (at the hands of the buses!), which are often full, i know i am going to end up sitting next to someone Just don't make eye contact , its the only way i can face the journey - getting stuck in with doing homework or reading my book...
Back to the more 'official' stuff:
[trich is] defined as "hair loss from a patient's repetitive self-pulling of hair" and is characterized by the repeated urge to pull out scalp hair, eyelashes, facial hair, nose hair, pubic hair, and eyebrows or other body hair, sometimes resulting in noticeable bald patches
(thank you wikipedia)
It is currently classified in the DSM-IV (a thing they got happening which is all about mental disorders of various types) as an Impulse Control Disorder, however i read somewhere (cant remember where) that it is being reviewed and when they bring out the next DSM it might be classed as OCD (dont quote me on it tho!)
So, what causes it?
well...
the following have all been linked to it, to an extent at somepoint (although everyone is different!), not necessarily causes, could be side effects, but there is correlation between them...
-Anxiety
-Depression
-OCD
- Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
- Stress
- possibility that it is genetic - SLITRK1 gene mutations? And to do with Serotonin 2a receptor genes...
"Another school of thought emphasizes hair pulling as addictive or positively reinforcing insofar as it is associated with rising tension beforehand and relief afterward."
What would you like to know about it?
It's an All consuming monster
there's not really much more to it...
well, i guess there are the facts...
the literal translation from Greek is 'hair pulling madness'
It is an illness not a disease (am just gonna put in here that these are my thoughts - not necessarily medical facts), and the reason i am making a difference is because i personally think of a disease as something more terminal, where-as an illness is something everyone gets, and recover from...
having done some searching, i have just found this amazing poem which helps to show the feelings:
To wake every morning
Guilt ridden from head to toe
You head to the mirror, not entirely sure of what will show.
Head already spinning of how to cover up
What can be the reason when people ask ‘whats up?’
A dare seems the most likely
Followed by drunken prankOr be gutsy and be truthful
About all the hairs you yank?
It’s just not good to look at,
When all the face is bare,
Although not as bad as many,
the pulling is still there
You see a dark root coming,
and you want that bastard hair.
The urge, stronger, stronger, stronger until finally defeat’s conceded.
That urge you tried to ignore but eventually you ceded.
Relief is there straight after
Though only fleeting by.
Then it really hits you,The agonising aftermath;
Not just redness above the eyes
But the mental state your left in
The question of just why?
Where has it gone
That confidence I lack?
All I want is to have it back
Well this is my life, so Welcome.
Welcome to my life
As a trichotillomaniac
I wake every morning
Guilt ridden from head to toe
I head to my mirror, not entirely sure of what will show……
the thing is it's just so true to life! i am not taking the credit for it, it is on the UK Trichotillomania Support forum/website thingy...
Anyway, back to earlier comment - the whole all consuming monster...
It is, it affects me everywhere i go, bearing in mind i am a student atm, so always out, getting to/from college (at the hands of the buses!), which are often full, i know i am going to end up sitting next to someone Just don't make eye contact , its the only way i can face the journey - getting stuck in with doing homework or reading my book...
Back to the more 'official' stuff:
[trich is] defined as "hair loss from a patient's repetitive self-pulling of hair" and is characterized by the repeated urge to pull out scalp hair, eyelashes, facial hair, nose hair, pubic hair, and eyebrows or other body hair, sometimes resulting in noticeable bald patches
(thank you wikipedia)
It is currently classified in the DSM-IV (a thing they got happening which is all about mental disorders of various types) as an Impulse Control Disorder, however i read somewhere (cant remember where) that it is being reviewed and when they bring out the next DSM it might be classed as OCD (dont quote me on it tho!)
So, what causes it?
well...
the following have all been linked to it, to an extent at somepoint (although everyone is different!), not necessarily causes, could be side effects, but there is correlation between them...
-Anxiety
-Depression
-OCD
- Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
- Stress
- possibility that it is genetic - SLITRK1 gene mutations? And to do with Serotonin 2a receptor genes...
"Another school of thought emphasizes hair pulling as addictive or positively reinforcing insofar as it is associated with rising tension beforehand and relief afterward."
[Chamberlain SR, Menzies L, Sahakian BJ, Fineberg NA (April 2007). "Lifting the veil on trichotillomania". Am J Psychiatry 164 (4): 568–74. ]
Because of the social stigma attached to Trich it is impossible to say how many people have it, it is often hidden and very rarely will a person go to the doctors about it, imho - parents will take their children if they notice it, but say if a parent notices it within themselves they are a lot less likely to go! (just something i've noticed)
Treatment?
Well, again this illness is different with everyone, so the treatment varies! Anyone can develop trich, and the age also makes a difference... IE a 5year old is likely to grow out of it, and so the parents are encouraged to ignore it, however older kids (pre-teens/teens/young Adults) are thought to benefit from knowing that there are lots of people with trich (which there are) and then go to things such as Behaviour Modification Training, with seeing a psychologist/psychiatrist as a last resort. Then the true and proper adults - they are often reffered to Psychiatrist straight away as trich in older people is generally more associated with other psychiatric disorders (more of a by-product than the source...)
Anything else?
as i said just now, it is possible for anyone to have trich, however it does seam more 'popular' with females (preschool age is equal gender difference, then it gradually goes up to being more female dominated) . Although that is not to say men don't get it too!
I think that is all you could want to know about trich in one go (plus im hungry and want my tea!) However, if you would like to know more, just ask (post a comment at the bottom) and i will endeavor to find the answer for you! (or give my opinion...)
Food time! x
Monday, 28 June 2010
Update!
Ok i really am trying to keep up with this whole blogging business...
Lets see, whats happened since i last posted something?
Well, i received my CRB thingymawotsit today, and turns out im not a criminal! (not that i thought it was going to say anything different! ;) )
i have emailed the QG lady for the county, and she has sent me a form i need to get filled in and sent off.
I have almost finished writing my personal statement for Uni applications (woop!), Best bit is it has only taken 2 bus rides to get the draft done, thats the hardest bit!
So, my life is being oddly organised so far, including handing in homeworks on time! (lets just say my subject statements were along the lines of, the work she has done on time has been to a high standard, however it is often not in on time! - however i am changing that!)
I was talking to my study skills tutor (a while back, admittedly) and he turned round to me (figuratively) and said - 'you've changed.' [fact], i was like how so? 'you have a different mentality to work, where-as before you would always give excuses, now you come up with ways to change it' It made me happy :)
and i have noticed a change... of sorts
although i can't say why or when i changed, i just have!
It's very odd!
Working on recent ish relevations...
one that could be taken either way, last friday my college guidance councilor thingy person... has said (and rightly so) that there is a lot of anger within me... and rightly so, although i don't think i had always recognised it for what it is.
But, tbh try picking between which parent to live with, when you are 14, and have just come back from an amazing day out! Tis not very easy... However living with the what if thought is the hardest part, not the making of the decision, but the consequences!
anyway
i feel like i should have a post which explains about Trich, and what it is to have it... although it is kinda interspersed (is that the right word?) with each post...
I shall do it in the morning! (and if i dont then poke me til i do ;) )
hell, i might even do it straight after this one! (i feel it deserves its own thread...)
Trich + me + today= ...
i have no idea why, but i feel uber pissed off... its really strange, like, nothing has actually happened to make me feel that way, its just... i am, and the worst part? Because i don't get whats caused it, i don't have a clue where to start to stop it! (o the irony of the last part of that sentance!)
It is kinda the story of trich - if you know why it started, u have a better base to work from to stop it, however if u don't have a clue why it started you are left, floating in the ether-net, waiting for an answer to chance across you!
right, i am afraid that is it for tonight, although promise to update tomorrow!
Wow that was one of those uber long ones that u dont plan, they just happen, and your fingers just keep wherring until u think, its 10 to 12 at night, i have college tomorrow, i should be asleep! (oops!)
Night y'all (sorry - read an amazing book - from house of night series- and now have country speak in me!)
Lets see, whats happened since i last posted something?
Well, i received my CRB thingymawotsit today, and turns out im not a criminal! (not that i thought it was going to say anything different! ;) )
i have emailed the QG lady for the county, and she has sent me a form i need to get filled in and sent off.
I have almost finished writing my personal statement for Uni applications (woop!), Best bit is it has only taken 2 bus rides to get the draft done, thats the hardest bit!
So, my life is being oddly organised so far, including handing in homeworks on time! (lets just say my subject statements were along the lines of, the work she has done on time has been to a high standard, however it is often not in on time! - however i am changing that!)
I was talking to my study skills tutor (a while back, admittedly) and he turned round to me (figuratively) and said - 'you've changed.' [fact], i was like how so? 'you have a different mentality to work, where-as before you would always give excuses, now you come up with ways to change it' It made me happy :)
and i have noticed a change... of sorts
although i can't say why or when i changed, i just have!
It's very odd!
Working on recent ish relevations...
one that could be taken either way, last friday my college guidance councilor thingy person... has said (and rightly so) that there is a lot of anger within me... and rightly so, although i don't think i had always recognised it for what it is.
But, tbh try picking between which parent to live with, when you are 14, and have just come back from an amazing day out! Tis not very easy... However living with the what if thought is the hardest part, not the making of the decision, but the consequences!
anyway
i feel like i should have a post which explains about Trich, and what it is to have it... although it is kinda interspersed (is that the right word?) with each post...
I shall do it in the morning! (and if i dont then poke me til i do ;) )
hell, i might even do it straight after this one! (i feel it deserves its own thread...)
Trich + me + today= ...
i have no idea why, but i feel uber pissed off... its really strange, like, nothing has actually happened to make me feel that way, its just... i am, and the worst part? Because i don't get whats caused it, i don't have a clue where to start to stop it! (o the irony of the last part of that sentance!)
It is kinda the story of trich - if you know why it started, u have a better base to work from to stop it, however if u don't have a clue why it started you are left, floating in the ether-net, waiting for an answer to chance across you!
right, i am afraid that is it for tonight, although promise to update tomorrow!
Wow that was one of those uber long ones that u dont plan, they just happen, and your fingers just keep wherring until u think, its 10 to 12 at night, i have college tomorrow, i should be asleep! (oops!)
Night y'all (sorry - read an amazing book - from house of night series- and now have country speak in me!)
Friday, 18 June 2010
Busy couple of days!
Ooo didn't do a post yesterday!
Well
Well
i have been busy :)I have designed a badge that i now need to get made, to use as a swap at the Centenary Camp at the beginning of August (and to sell or swap inbetween now and then!)
Woop :) well proud of it!
Also yesterday got my CRB emailed off for guiding :)
And spoke to my district commissioner (DC) about starting my Queens Guide Award (she said to email the QG county person, and that she would be willing to be my mentor!)
And we talked about what unit i can join to be a young leader at and start my ALQ :)
i feel so organised!
...
until i get home. Mums house is... Neat... too neat for my likeing (so neat that to me, it just doesn't feel like home... or rather, it doesn't feel like my home)
She keeps telling me to tidy my room - i have one pile of notebooks and i think at the time i had my dressing gown on the floor! it doesnt get much more tidy! Its called MY room for a reason - cos its mine not hers!
Grrrr
sorry - had to let that out of my system!
*and breathe*
This might explain for the chunk of eyebrow i obliterated yesterday.
i had been getting better - just through being more conscious of what im doing... most of the time :/
However lots of mixed up teenagery emotions are not helping! Neither are the looks i see mum give me across the tea table (being the only meal i eat with them...) Its horrible - she gets this calculating look come across her face and you can see her eyes darting across my face. The worst bit is i dont think she realises she is doing it, or that i can tell exactly what she is doing!
ARRRGGGHHH!
anyway
i have to be out of the house at 6.25 tomorrow, so need to go and get my sleep!!!
Woop :) well proud of it!
Also yesterday got my CRB emailed off for guiding :)
And spoke to my district commissioner (DC) about starting my Queens Guide Award (she said to email the QG county person, and that she would be willing to be my mentor!)
And we talked about what unit i can join to be a young leader at and start my ALQ :)
i feel so organised!
...
until i get home. Mums house is... Neat... too neat for my likeing (so neat that to me, it just doesn't feel like home... or rather, it doesn't feel like my home)
She keeps telling me to tidy my room - i have one pile of notebooks and i think at the time i had my dressing gown on the floor! it doesnt get much more tidy! Its called MY room for a reason - cos its mine not hers!
Grrrr
sorry - had to let that out of my system!
*and breathe*
This might explain for the chunk of eyebrow i obliterated yesterday.
i had been getting better - just through being more conscious of what im doing... most of the time :/
However lots of mixed up teenagery emotions are not helping! Neither are the looks i see mum give me across the tea table (being the only meal i eat with them...) Its horrible - she gets this calculating look come across her face and you can see her eyes darting across my face. The worst bit is i dont think she realises she is doing it, or that i can tell exactly what she is doing!
ARRRGGGHHH!
anyway
i have to be out of the house at 6.25 tomorrow, so need to go and get my sleep!!!
Wednesday, 16 June 2010
Bit of everything!
well well well
here we are again.
Me, sitting here typing, you, sitting there reading - i want to make some deep philosophical point but its too late now (will come back to it in the morning!)
Today - got up, went for a row/cox...
got annoyed at the man that 'looks after' Mr Asbo (swan - google him!). There's a huge debate happening between everyone that uses the river, and everyone who hasn't got a clue what he's like, have nothing to do with the river, and are willing to believe whatever rubbish the newspapers print!! grrr. anyway. We went out in the wooden boat - its well nice! its turns... :O (the only other 8 we have practiced in has a broken rudder...) We got back, (had some bacon sandwhiches), and i got a lift to dads house, i picked up my stuff, then got bus 1 to town, met a friend and had a hot chocolate (yum - was a HUGE one from costa...), got bus number 2 to town 2, then got 3rd bus back to mums. 3 hours on buses ish... o joy :|
The trich:
woke up and didnt pull at all until i got back from rowing :) Not quite sure what this means, but i shall take it as something good.
To balance this goodness out tho - i did have a mini relapse (most people call a relapse when they pull after a pull free period -my relapses are more, a pulling session which involves less control from me...) I now have 2 cuts under my armpits where ive tried to hard to get to hairs :/ Its not my best, but its definitely not my worst!
However - i also have got rid of my 'eyelash stubble' - so my lids are smooth again - its such a nice feeling running my hand over the smooth bit of skin, yet so much shame accompanies the feeling - it's so not worth it!
ok i am uber uber tired right now (something to do with 4 hours sleep last night?)
so i am going to go and quit while i am ahead (and havent mutilated myself too much through tiredness alone!)
ooo one more thing - we were talking about acronyms earlier on a guiding forum i am part of and i created a pic of one acronyms go wrong:
TTFN :)
here we are again.
Me, sitting here typing, you, sitting there reading - i want to make some deep philosophical point but its too late now (will come back to it in the morning!)
Today - got up, went for a row/cox...
got annoyed at the man that 'looks after' Mr Asbo (swan - google him!). There's a huge debate happening between everyone that uses the river, and everyone who hasn't got a clue what he's like, have nothing to do with the river, and are willing to believe whatever rubbish the newspapers print!! grrr. anyway. We went out in the wooden boat - its well nice! its turns... :O (the only other 8 we have practiced in has a broken rudder...) We got back, (had some bacon sandwhiches), and i got a lift to dads house, i picked up my stuff, then got bus 1 to town, met a friend and had a hot chocolate (yum - was a HUGE one from costa...), got bus number 2 to town 2, then got 3rd bus back to mums. 3 hours on buses ish... o joy :|
The trich:
woke up and didnt pull at all until i got back from rowing :) Not quite sure what this means, but i shall take it as something good.
To balance this goodness out tho - i did have a mini relapse (most people call a relapse when they pull after a pull free period -my relapses are more, a pulling session which involves less control from me...) I now have 2 cuts under my armpits where ive tried to hard to get to hairs :/ Its not my best, but its definitely not my worst!
However - i also have got rid of my 'eyelash stubble' - so my lids are smooth again - its such a nice feeling running my hand over the smooth bit of skin, yet so much shame accompanies the feeling - it's so not worth it!
ok i am uber uber tired right now (something to do with 4 hours sleep last night?)
so i am going to go and quit while i am ahead (and havent mutilated myself too much through tiredness alone!)
ooo one more thing - we were talking about acronyms earlier on a guiding forum i am part of and i created a pic of one acronyms go wrong:
TTFN :)
Tuesday, 15 June 2010
Fail.
Fail.
i was going to get up at about half 8, shower and get ready, and get the 9.55 bus to Ely, then the 10.35 bus to Newmarket (thats a 5 min turn around time in Ely!).
(btw i feel i should add it doesn't take me over an hour to get ready, but it means i don't have to rush, and can be awake by the time i leave the house!)
So i wake up at 10.40... OOPS! (disaster 1)
realise i had no chance of making the 10.55 bus...
so ended up getting the 11.55 (yes, bus once an hour to where mums house is)
Firstly, i discovered having left the house that i had forgotten to put on my necklace (the first time i haven't worn it since i got it) - a celtic cross, £7.99 from argos (would post a pic but the website down!)- i am going to ask for a nice cross for my birthday/christmas... (disaster 2)
Bus turns up 10 minutes late (disaster 3), now usually i wouldn't mind being a little bit late, however when we got to Ely discovered that i had just missed my next bus, so i waited for 55minutes until the next one turned up - well the bus was already there, was waiting on the driver and it to be scheduled to leave...
Anyway, got the bus to newmarket, then went and met a friend who works at the bank, and we nattered for a bit :), then i went and got my address changed - at said bank, i always envisage it taking ages and being really awkward, and actually it takes seconds! (as long as u can remember ur address...) and i know i have done a change of address before, not that long ago, but shhh!
Then onto bus number 3 (which was the next one i could have caught after getting off the other bus... another 50ish minute wait!)
Got on that bus and got to dads...
so, lets review, leave mums at 11.50 (to get to bus stop) get all the next possible buses, and get to dads at about 3ish...
This is an Unimpressed face :|
However, an upside - when i am within the 'public eye' i do tend to completely refrain from pulling at all! Its not even as if i get the urges which i ignore - no urges to even run fingers over hair ends... :) so that makes me happy.
It's now just the mornings and evenings and when i'm alone that i need to look out for... :/
and again, being the evening... Grrr... why can't i just not do it? I mean, its not that hard to control what your arm/fingers do, is it? Evidently it is.
Right, i really need to go! i have to leave the house by 5.45 tomorrow AM... did i mention before that i'm a rowing cox? i might have.. anyway, yeah, we have an outing planned for 6am tomorrow... don't know if its going to be in the 4 or the 8, im guessing the 4 as 2 people can't row atm mid week, and we haven't heard anything from the 3rd, which leaves up with 7 people...
Unhelpful!!
And on that bombshell... i shall leave u for another in-determined amount of time.
i was going to get up at about half 8, shower and get ready, and get the 9.55 bus to Ely, then the 10.35 bus to Newmarket (thats a 5 min turn around time in Ely!).
(btw i feel i should add it doesn't take me over an hour to get ready, but it means i don't have to rush, and can be awake by the time i leave the house!)
So i wake up at 10.40... OOPS! (disaster 1)
realise i had no chance of making the 10.55 bus...
so ended up getting the 11.55 (yes, bus once an hour to where mums house is)
Firstly, i discovered having left the house that i had forgotten to put on my necklace (the first time i haven't worn it since i got it) - a celtic cross, £7.99 from argos (would post a pic but the website down!)- i am going to ask for a nice cross for my birthday/christmas... (disaster 2)
Bus turns up 10 minutes late (disaster 3), now usually i wouldn't mind being a little bit late, however when we got to Ely discovered that i had just missed my next bus, so i waited for 55minutes until the next one turned up - well the bus was already there, was waiting on the driver and it to be scheduled to leave...
Anyway, got the bus to newmarket, then went and met a friend who works at the bank, and we nattered for a bit :), then i went and got my address changed - at said bank, i always envisage it taking ages and being really awkward, and actually it takes seconds! (as long as u can remember ur address...) and i know i have done a change of address before, not that long ago, but shhh!
Then onto bus number 3 (which was the next one i could have caught after getting off the other bus... another 50ish minute wait!)
Got on that bus and got to dads...
so, lets review, leave mums at 11.50 (to get to bus stop) get all the next possible buses, and get to dads at about 3ish...
This is an Unimpressed face :|
However, an upside - when i am within the 'public eye' i do tend to completely refrain from pulling at all! Its not even as if i get the urges which i ignore - no urges to even run fingers over hair ends... :) so that makes me happy.
It's now just the mornings and evenings and when i'm alone that i need to look out for... :/
and again, being the evening... Grrr... why can't i just not do it? I mean, its not that hard to control what your arm/fingers do, is it? Evidently it is.
Right, i really need to go! i have to leave the house by 5.45 tomorrow AM... did i mention before that i'm a rowing cox? i might have.. anyway, yeah, we have an outing planned for 6am tomorrow... don't know if its going to be in the 4 or the 8, im guessing the 4 as 2 people can't row atm mid week, and we haven't heard anything from the 3rd, which leaves up with 7 people...
Unhelpful!!
And on that bombshell... i shall leave u for another in-determined amount of time.
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